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Today I had to say goodbye to my furry friend I had for over 12 years. For those that don’t know, about two weeks ago he suddenly stopped eating and I had no idea why. I took him to the vet to see what was wrong with him and turned out he had a nasty liver infection. So for two weeks I tried my best with meds to try to get him to eat again and cure his liver infection. At first things were going good, he was eating again and starting to feel better, but then this past weekend he took a turn for the worst. he was shaking and panting badly which is a sigh he was either in a lot of pain or that he was very sick. Then he stopped eating again. It was then I made the hard choice to put him down, he was not getting any better and I did not want to prolong his suffering anymore. He was a good boy and he will be greatly missed. I hope aussie is at peace now, that he is running free through the fields in heaven. Maybe he will meet up with my previous dog I lost in the early 2000s and they will run together. So as you can imagine I will be taking a long break from being on this site and doing photos in general as I need my time recover from my loss.

hi to whoever still watches me, I'm writing this just to tell the reason I have not posted anything in months is because this past winter as sucked for me and not in a it's too cold and snowy way, but more it's too warm and no snow at all kind of way. I have had barely any snow at all throughout the past few months, just a lot of rain. so not really anything worth going out and taking pictures of. it's funny because in the northeastern states above me, it's the snow apocalypse with 3 feet of snow. same for the states out in the midwest where they are getting a lot of snow as well. but here where I live, no snow and 60 degree temps. what the hell is up with the weather in my part of the US? anyway, I do still come on here daily just the check messages and browse photos other people have taken. and besides the weather sucking, I have been really busy with personal life issues and other art projects that has prevented me from doing any photography. that is all I can say for now.

even though my thanksgiving may not a happy one, I want to wish all my american watchers on here a Happy Thanksgiving. I hope your holiday weekend is filled with lots of food and great time with family. and learn to cherish the things you have now because you never know when it might be gone. plus don't be of those crazy people that starts black friday shopping on thanksgiving day.

in light of recent events with DA rolling out this AI art program dreamup I'm not sure I want to post on my photos on DA anymore. even though there is a setting to automatically opt out all the artwork in your gallery to not be use for AI art, but how well can I trust that? DA has not been a very trust worthy site for a long time. plus DA has done very little to address the issue of stolen artwork, spam accounts and massive amounts of AI art from other AI generators being posted. plus I think DA allowing AI art in the first place in reaching a new low, AI art is not real art. pure and simple as that. having a program created the art for you does not make you a real artist.

I'm not sure where I live go from here. I do have social media sites like facebook, twitter, Instagram, etc., but I'm sure if I want to post my work there as they have their own share of problems. I'm not sure what I'm going to do at this point. I'm not even sure I want to continue with photography because I have so much else going my life right now. I just do photography as a hobby. anyway, to all my remaining watchers on here, it has been fun. I did enjoy my time on here, I had a lot of good memories and made good friends here, but it time for me to move on.

others places to find me.

https://www.facebook.com/kimberly.mattia

https://www.instagram.com/blueravenfire/

https://www.tumblr.com/ravenfirelair

so another year as come to pass and here some of my personal thoughts of this past year. I will say overall it was slightly better the 2020 because a got to do a little bit more this year. Still it felt like this year went by way too fast. One good example of how a person described how their year went for them was like sitting on a speeding train without any stops and yet new people are still coming on to the train, but you remain stationary. That is what this past year as felt like for me, I’m sitting on this ever moving train where everything is changing but I remain the same just watching the world go by. I always feel melancholy around this time of year between christmas and new years because when I reflect over the past year and try to remember what I have accomplished, it’s not that much. Sure I have improved on my art and photography as I always do, but other then that, there is not much to talk about. I’m still in the same position I was career wise and still trying to find any meaning or fulfillment in my life.

But anyway, I will go over then major events that I can remember from this past year. In the beginning of the year my anxiety over the pandemic was still high because I didn’t get my vaccine yet, but once me and my parents got the vaccine my anxiety was a little less knowing I was somewhat safe from the virus, but then the delta variant came along to ruin things. Even though they said vaccines are still good against the new variant, I would still get nervous every time I would go out. I still spent a lot of time at home because a lot of the freelance work I did could still be done at home and I had very little reason to go out of the house. Some good news is that I did make a few new friends within the furry fandom, even though it was mostly online friends, but it still counts. But some bad news is that my dad did get covid earlier in the year, but he has been fully vaccinated beforehand, so even though he still felt sick it was not devastating enough for him to go to the hospital, it just felt like a normal cold to him so he was able to recover from it. And he did follow all the safety measures once he knew he had it. He is pretty much fine now, he just as the lingering side effects like lost sense of taste and coughing.

My summer was very dull and boring, not really because of the ever changing situation with the pandemic, but mostly because I was broke as hell during the summer and didn’t have the money to go anywhere. My holiday season was a little better though since things were getting back to normal and seasonal events were happening again. I did more things for halloween and christmas, but thanksgiving didn’t really change that much though. But for the first time in a while I felt more into the holiday spirit. Normally the holidays are a difficult complicated time for me because most of the holidays involve having fun with friends and family and I don’t really have a lot of that in my life. But this year I felt more happy, probably mostly because it was nice to see things slowly get back to normal considering how depressing things were last year. For my christmas holiday I got see a lot of my friends and do more things before the omicron variant began a thing and since I don’t have to travel far to see my parents, I at least got to spend christmas with them and nothing bad happened for christmas this year so I consider that a win. So yeah, my christmas was just okay, but despite that there was still a lingering sadness in me because of family issues. I know I have other family relatives out there somewhere, I just have no idea how to contact them and none of them have contacted me or my parents in years. I know not everyone gets along with their families on christmas, but it would be nice to see my extended family just once on christmas. I did get a real freelance job towards the end of the year, but it maybe only be temporary and whether this job actually leads to anything good or some process in my life remains to be seen. I didn't get to do as much photography as I would of liked too, but such is life, I can't control everything that happens in my life and get everything i wanted.

But anyway, overall this year was only slightly better then last year only because things are slowly getting to normal with this pandemic, but for me on a personal level not much as really changed. I always try to remain hopeful about the new coming year, but considering how the past year as been I don’t want to be too hopeful anything will change, but then again you never know what the new year may hold.

So yeah, happy new year to everyone!

Cheers to hoping next year will be better then the last.

See you all next year!